This post was published on the Huffington Post on 10/19.
An Emotionally Naked Performance
As a street performer, the question “What’s it like busking?” is posed to me often, usually coming from curious bystanders and fellow musicians as they gauge whether or not they want to try it out for themselves.
And because this summer I took my street gig on the road to 20 cities across the states, I received this question tenfold in the aftermath -- although it was technically my second most asked question.
Imagining what it's like busking is somewhat of an easy task -- even if you’re someone who cannot fathom the idea of performing in public.
Picture the busiest street corner, subway station or park you pass on your daily commute. Depending on the time of day, passersby are simultaneously ignoring their surroundings as they stare at their phones, while still managing to weave in and out of one another.
Visualize stopping at the most crowded point of the street or station and shouting “Hello!” at the top of your lungs.
Whether or not people react outright, most eyes make their way to you and then instantly dart away. But in this scenario, that doesn’t stop you. You continue to shout greetings at these strangers while most make dogged attempts to appear as if they haven’t heard you at all.
Occasionally, a few drifters stop by to chat — they didn’t realize it, but they were searching for someone to acknowledge them. They welcome your hellos. Some stretch the limits of small talk and ignore your subtle cues that you want the conversation to end. But all in all, you’re grateful that someone was listening.
Mix all of those social elements with music and you have yourself a comparable experience to what it feels like performing in public spaces -- out of place, in everyone’s way, sprinkled with a few lasting connections.
After playing in 20 cities this summer, I became quite comfortable with putting myself in socially uncomfortable situations. I performed among the best buskers in the country in New Orleans' French Quarter, to an antsy Fourth of July crowd in Austin, to the tourists and local weirdos on Hollywood Boulevard, was booted off of the Santa Monica boardwalk, snuck in a few rounds at Seattle’s permit-required Pike Place Market, among many other crowds and backdrops.
The concept of marrying music with the road is one of the oldest unions since humans started manipulating sounds -- just as busking is one of the most ancient professions in recorded history.
Arguably the most embedded type of performance, buskers implants themselves among the bustling traffic, the irritated late interns and the homeless. The listeners don’t initially go to the performer — the performer goes to the listeners. And eventually, if you’re lucky and good at what you do, the listeners will momentarily halt their day to enjoy a moment with you.
Safety? What About It?
In many ways, my busking trip was more of a social experiment than a test of my musical abilities. It was people who tipped me for my songs, and people -- some of whom were essentially strangers -- who hosted me all across the country.
One instance of this stranger-to-stranger trust that dumbfounded me time and time again was a family I found on Couchsurfers who opened up their home to me -- located in a trailer park in Idaho -- as they were away on vacation.
While I was thrilled to be so well received in a myriad of different settings, the “strangers” aspect was what had initially dimmed my prospects for this trip -- nearly leading me to throw in the towel before even taking off.
Which brings me to my first most frequently asked question: “What about your safety?” — which was, humorously, the last concern on my mind when first planning my trip.
After announcing my summer plans, I received so many questions regarding my safety, it actually inched its way into my mind as a concern, initially deflating my excitement (especially when it was revealed to me that many feared for my safety because I was a “small woman traveling alone.”)
But after traveling 8,450 miles (that’s 177 hours, or about 7.3 full days, spent in transit), the most dangerous occurrence was a homeless woman following me in broad daylight for two hours in Atlanta, leaving me unscathed and loaded with a funny story.
The concept of strangers being something to instantly distrust was turned on its head as these strangers-turned-friends ended up being the “how” behind me being able to complete my venture.
Except for one instance, my room and board for the entire trip was provided by hosts. Without their hospitality, I wouldn’t have completed my goal.
Which leads me wonder: What are we actually afraid of when we say we fear for our safety? Is a fear and obsession over safety a socially accepted way of closing ourselves off to other people and new experiences?
Although, to be fair, it's not a foolish question to ask -- "Are we safe on the road?" -- but more-so a question that never receives a complete answer.
The road's never-ending pivots can lead you down Montana's ink-black highways, where the star-dotted sky is shades brighter than the miles that stretch on so far that each minute seems identical to each hour. Or the road can weave you in between Colorado's mountains and fields, with colors so vivid, you have to double check that you're awake.
At the end of the day, though, the setting wasn't the truly defining layer of my trip. Nor were the countless tunes I sang to myself and to bystanders.
While the music may have brought the people to me, it was the people that inspired me to continue along for all those miles. Just as they continue to keep me plucking away at my guitar strings one note, one shy smile and one performance at a time.